Motivation

Often people, especially men, ESPECIALLY my brothas tell me I do not need to loose weight or slim down.  They are afraid my hips and ass will disappear.  I assure them that is not the case.  As my waist trims down, my hip/ass ratio will stay the same so no worries.  I will definitely still have back!!! And I don't want to lose it either.  

Trust me, this is not going anywhere!

So most men are definitely attracted to me regardless of age or race.  But I don't do this to look better for others.  I want to look better to myself.  I want to feel better.  I feel incredibly strong having gone through this journey and I want that feeling to continue.  But it is very easy to become complacent.

Those before pictures are a snapshot in a yo-yo pattern.  I was a 2 in high school, a four in my early twenties.  After a particularly trying time in my life, I blew up to a size 14.  No, not overnight.  But so gradually and so slowly I didn't even realize until it was inevitable.  Looking in the mirror one day, I realized I was indeed FAT.  So I tried fad diets and calorie counting.  I would get down to an 8.  Life was great and I would stop, then I was a 12 or 14 again.  So this time I was determined to get it off and keep it off.  I'm at the point, size 6, where I can be very complacent.  Everyone tells me I look great and I'm fine the way I am which can easily feed into my complacency.  And so I need to get motivation:


This is a lifestyle, not a fad!!!  It is super important that I can have my quality of life, trendy yet healthy, and still reach my goals:
Every little success awakens a hunger for more success.
I have a one and half pack, I need a six pack
I'm a six, I need to be a 2
I will not live a life of deprivation.  I believe in the absolute enjoyment of every minute of of every day of my life.

    Complexity – This lifestyle is give and take.  I do not deprive myself of that which I desire.  But in order to do so, I must also have discipline.  In another universe is a 500lbs version of me.  In order for that universe not to mesh with this one, I have to counterbalance this by…
      Waking up at 4am to work out 
       Working out before bed  
       Using the weekend to catch up on workouts I may have missed
       Eating healthier so I can eat more.  

Does this mean I am perfectly disciplined and adhere well to this give and take?  Absolutely not!!!  In fact when I did not adhere to it, I went from a size 4 to a 14 in about three years!   But I am glad for this journey – it has taught me humility, given me strength and courage, and oddly I have more self-confidence now than ever before.